decisions

So here I am last time I posted I was in a situation with my son's teachers. its been less than a week and now I am wondering if I am even going to be in this country a month from now! crazy how crazy.  I have been wrestling for months with the decision of my husband re-enlisting into the Army. There are many pros and cons either way. Just a simple list for ya security benifits all the basics cons would be leaving my family when we have to relocate or deployment. A part of me would love to have that adventure being from a small town where almost no one leaves and almost all come back it would be nice to see something outside of the Carolinas. It would only be for about two years- if when we come to this cross roads then we decide to wrap it up and head home. Then the other side hurts physically when I truely picture moving so far away it would take planes or days to come home to my family the ones who have always been there unconditionally. Then you add the fact that you are making choices not only for yourself but two little people. FEAR I think thats the biggest hurdle I feel excited at pts thru out these days I feel sadness I feel worry for my Dad, but the overcoming emotion would be fear.  I don't know this is the big cloud until some decision any decision is made. Then the fear of making the wrong one.